Alright, before I proceed to this next rant, I just want to clarify some things. First of all, my rants are solely my opinions and thoughts. Secondly, I don’t plan to do anything about what I rant about because when I blog, I just want to let people know what I feel. Thirdly…and that is why it is called a rant.
It would have been much faster if it was a video rant. Haha. But anyhow…dwelling into the topic, I was reading the opinions section of the Star lately and cannot help but notice all the hype surrounding that one letter from this kid who got 9A1 and failed to get into a local university. And to make things worse, he got a B in Bahasa Melayu if I’m not wrong. All this responses to that one letter is just amazing, a clear portrayal of what the people want the government to do about its education system. How it is about time for a revamp. When I say people…I might have actually meant Chinese.
Actually I don’t know. I don’t want to have to talk about the education system and have to dwell into politics and then the race issue, but everything seemed so intertwined. But, I’ll try to stay on track. So among the responses received so far are like a “why does PSD (JPA) scholars get pampered”, “why does getting a B in BM doesn’t warrant you a place in the local universities”, “why does getting good results and having a good curricular background doesn’t get you anywhere” and other related issues. But the gist of it is, it always comes down to the color issue. This is really frustrating. This boy’s letter is getting all the attention that is needed to pinpoint the blame to the government being color bias. Crap…I’m so comfortably heading to the race issue aren’t I?
Stick to the education issue, stick to it.
I don’t want to have to talk about this like I am an arrogant, discontented bastard. I don’t want to have people reading this thinking that I am not glad that I got the scholarship and I don’t want to have people reading this treating me any differently. But for people who actually knows me, probably won’t because I talked about this more often than not.
Since I was awarded the scholarship after SPM back in 2004, I always have this ‘was-was’ about if I deserve it or not. It feels like that I don’t because my resume does not back my receiving this great honor. I didn’t seem to concur so nicely as to having a good result, boosted by excellent curricular aptitude. I was a normal kid, getting extra good results based on luck I supposed. Truth is, I didn’t even thought of college because I think my parents wouldn’t be able to afford it. All I know was that, it doesn’t matter, if I don’t get that scholarship, I’ll just stay in form 6, do my STPM, see where I go from there. I am the local university boy. Not that boy writing to the paper complaining about how he couldn’t get into the university despite his good result or that boy that insistently and relentlessly write about how he should’ve got a scholarship or anything of such because he had had perform so well in SPM.
Perhaps allowing me to be able to make a choice on what I want to do is something bad. I think I am that kind that allows thing to happen as they happen. I remember having to tell people who ask me what I’m gonna do in the future “We’ll see where the river flows”. Perhaps I’m like the Zen Master who adheres to the principle of unexpectability (if you watched Charlie Wilson’s War). I don’t think I will be ever confused if my life were decided for me by that river. Now that I have been given the privilege of choice, I become ever depressed, blaming every single wrong decision on myself rather than the river. That’s what you call self bashing. Back to the original topic.
I know I am whiny. But I am still going to whine about these little brats who think they deserve everything in the world because they work so hard for it. On the sidenote, maybe my indifference to being awarded the scholarship was the reason I was awarded the scholarship. Maybe karma came to me because you wanted it so much…you little brats! Take that!
Look, when I first read all these responses, i.e: “Getting 10A1’s, 9.2 for curricular (I don’t even know they have points nowadays), not getting into universities and matriculation, getting this amount of A’s, that amount of A’s and not getting a place in the university” all I had in mind was to lash out that the students. That’s what I usually do. I don’t usually see the big picture. Then I begin to realize that perhaps the government is at fault. Perhaps the only fault is the system itself.
So what are the reasons for these mishaps? Seriously, if you have such good results, you should be given the chance to have a better opportunity, somewhere, at least out of the country. Okay, let’s lash out at the government first. You guys suck. Okay, I’m saying that so I won’t be quoted in case I got caught. They probably won’t read that in court. “Andrew Low Chin Hock you are charged with blablabla because u said, “You guys(the government) suck.”” Haha. That would’ve sound so uniquely hilarious in court. But seriously, something need to be done to clear this mess and have fewer complainers.
First of all, you guys are giving out scholarships to people who are deemed undeserving and these other people are finding out. Worse yet, you are missing out these full A1’s scholars! You cannot do that and expect to get away with it. I think I am referring to PSD when I’m saying this. Then again, they are a governmental body and they should work things out among themselves. The SPM is such a bad evaluation system that people who deserved to be put in a full scholarship program are not. The range is huge. I mean, the amount of people scoring extremely good results are insurmountable now compared to the years before. Yes I understand that the economy is getting better and that we can afford to have more people overseas, but look at it this way, you are giving thousands of students the full A’s and surely you don’t expect to sponsor all of them, do you? Then, don’t la give worse off students the scholarship! I mean I totally understand that the economy standing of a family matters…but you occasionally missed out those economically average families with good results and are sponsoring sons and daughters of dato’s and richies.
And then, to make matters worse in such a way that you think doing so will help a specific race, you raise the bar of a specific subject so high that, the race which is taking that subject will most likely not get a good grade on that subject. And you lowered the bar of a specific subject so low…forget it. Everyone knows what I’m talking about. I really don’t think this is something that should be done. It is indeed very unfair. In the
I don’t know what else to say anymore, like I say I can only blog for a certain extent till I run out of thought and momentum. The light’s pretty much out now. And I’m pretty sure my previous paragraph is something we all know, but we just keep that in our mind and be sour grapes.
Do you know why you are losing scholars, or at least really good people like some of my friends to other countries? It is because you are not doing a good job taking care of us. We need your care just like your another son and if you’re going to continue to be biased by feeding him with all you can and leaving us to starve, we’ll find ourselves another father, man. And then you complain that we are not loyal as a son? What the fuck? We have perception and rationality as well. We are not dumb. If you are to treat us like we’re not your son, we are going away. So, now you’re gonna tell us that you have given us bed, a place to live and food? I think we both know that you have probably just only given us a place to live…while food and everything else…we didn’t get it from you. You’re like that man who stored his daughters in a dungeon for 24 years…using them as sex slaves. I’ve had enuff for today.
From wanting to scold the student to having to scold my father. Haha. How hilarious. I am such a redneck. :)
6 comments:
like you,i feel that they shud be fairer in distributing the very limited almost-all-expense paid scholarships to people from all races... this way, they can somehow guarantee that the very limited best brains will stay and contribute towards the country's betterment.
on another curious note, now that u are a scholarship holder and is receiving all almost-all-expense paid education overseas, do u feel that u still am not receiving good/fair treatment from the gov. and will you not work in Msia if given the chance? (despite the G paying for yr education) what do u think they can do better to keep scholarship recipients like yrself happy (if ever u have anything not happy abt..)
ps:am not accusing u of anything... just curious on wanting to know what u think now tht u are on another side of the fence from the boy who wrote to the papers. =)
cheers Andrew
Haha. I like how you put it. The G. Feels kinda ghetto thim. :P
Actually I what I meant by other people going away from Malaysia are those ppl with good results not getting sponsored. The reason? Coz G are not giving scholarships to them. I guess this is how the economical systems work. We are richer and can most likely afford to send our children elsewhere. When I say OUR, you know la who I mean. But there are more of us getting good results as compared to them, that's some of undeserving them are getting our spots. But fuck it, it's Malaysia anyway.
From my point of view, there are nothing much they can do to keep us happy and making sure that we come back. They have screwed up the situation so bad that our parents are telling us to get away from Malaysia if we can. Go get job elsewhere. In Malaysia, you'll be racially neglected. I think almost all of us are thinking like that. That include some of my friends who are working in the States now la.
That being said, I actually don't personally have experience on racism in the working sector. I still feel that there are places in Malaysia where opportunity will be given to those who work for it. Like in Infineon right now, I don't sense the racial prejudice. Yet, maybe I haven't seen what's behind the curtain.
So I'll let you know a year later. Haha.
I'll try to get job there, that's what i'll do first and if I don't, I'll come back and work somewhere like Shell or something if I can get :)
PSD are doing good to keep us happy. We're all very happy and satisfied. It's the whole system itself that is screwed up. But I don't want to have to talk so much later ISA tangkap or something =='
I understand the other boy. But I've always never really understood how it actually happened. How such people would lay such high hopes on PSD scholarship. I mean, you cannot have like one path and then if you don't get, you start blaming everyone else except yourself. Haih. I never thought I'd even get the scholarship. But since I already did, I am really thankful.
not everyone share the same thought.. maybe that's his only shot at studying overseas/doing a degree he wants i.e medicine.... and when he doesnt,all hell breaks loose
Come back malaysia and be patriotic. And this is not sarcasm. I mean it. Life is not that bad here. Despite all these stupid things, it's still our country.
Yes I will, just because you're here. Hahaha. And my family. And friends :)
If I fly off then how???? Hahaha...Just kidding. Yea,...good la u staying.
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